Hi, band practice on Wednesday and today. Wednesday 23 June 2010 was the worst day at band ever, other than last SYF. Gave up what was so important to me just for band's sake when they wouldn't even bother about it actually. I told a white lie, but it's actually quite obvious that it's a lie, anyone who knows me and believed it must be an idiot. But the conductors understood what I said so they went according to my wish (which is actually not entirely my wish, my wish is something else but will not be good for Band). If anyone's reading, I actually wish something but I know it'll not be good for Band, so I wish otherwise, and so I have conflicting wishes. But that was one of the most important things to me ever, which is why I was late back from break. Break will till 10.35 but I went back at 10.50, must be understanding la, but I don't think anyone even cared IF they noticed -.- Why do I even care so much about Band when they don't? I GAVE UP MY DREAM, TOLD A WHITE LIE, DISAPPOINTED MYSELF AND OTHER PEOPLE, TORTURE MYSELF FOR WHAT?! :( I thought I wasn't a selfless person, I used to be selfish right? I still am right? I don't know. They day was just sh*tty for me. After band I went to have lunch alone then project at Francoise's house again. As if I'm not emo enough he kept wasting time and slacking, reminding me of BAND! -.- I had gastric pain there, but he help me buy food :) When I went home it was painful like every step I took. I reached home at 8 by the way. Shortly after, I puked it out, then after a while the pain went away... What a lousy day. Later while I was playing with my phone, Jonathan called. Haha! He used the same trick. Pretend to be surveyor, I already recognise the number and his voice la, lol. He called to tell me he's coming today, and to give him and Geck Woon the Tapestry tickets :) I told him about my emo day... Er... he's the only person I've talked to on the phone when I don't need to. Need to as in, calling to take band key, directions (3R1 bbq, Jaslyn haha) all that.
Today Band! Jonathan and Yin Xuan came together at about 8.30am. He's the tuba player whose stapler was found in our cupboard before, haha! Walao Jonathan wear the same shirt he wore to Suky's concert! After a while Geck Woon also came and they sat at the percussion area. But less than 30min later the 2 of them gone, left YX. Then later he said wanna go toilet, then gone. We were playing Procession to Peace part G for more than 30min -.- due to some who can't count. During break, I saw they were all in music room -.- I miss Suky and she miss me too (really)! :( I went in to hear them play, they took Kevin and Darryl's files. See, even GW don't believe I don't want to play the solo. Gave them their tickets but GW can't go :( After break continue with PTP for very long until 11.30 then Symphonium. I know, the feeling won't go away. It's not nice. I want my senior (I know got 2 seniors today, but I want Kevin)! I miss my senior! :'( I miss his solo! Damn now Mr Yu say he wants tenor sax (Serene) to play too. After band GW talked to the band and committee. She likes "Jaslyn's solo" but I don't.
*我告诉你，我很会哭的。一哭就能哭到至少半个小时。那时我在 conductors 面前哭，他们叫 Jaslyn 带我到厕所洗脸，可是我都还没哭够！不到几分钟就停了。所以我回来，给 trombone 保养以下后，就失重到迟到才回来。可是他们都不管的啦，我猜有些人都不知道我不在。就算知道也以为我是没理由的迟到，白痴。Band Major 怎么可能没理由迟到！所以我说，为了这种乐队牺牲那么多时不值得的。
Labels: Band, Break, Feelings/Emotions, pissed, Seniors, Trombone, Unwell/Injuries